Saturday night - PARTY!!!

At 5.15pm got changed at work to go out. Was ready to have a good time. Met John at gunwharf, scrubbed round the pressie for Mark and went to Loch Fyne to share a bottle of rioja outside in the sun (ish!). Mark and Ulri joined us later and we went inside to order food before going off to Jongleurs. I had nipped to the loo and when I came back the guys told me there were no mussels. I thought they were pulling my leg. I had wanted moules all bloody day! They got the waitress over and she told me the same thing! I was so gutted! So we scrubbed round the food there and ended up on another bottle of rioja. From there we made our way to Jongleurs.

Well the comedy was shit...truely dire and the food was gloriously greasy - needed to soak up some alcohol! What I did find amazing though was that when it was all over, the speed at which the staff cleared the chairs and tables was so quick and in a sort of rhythm -god how do you spell that!!? By now we'd had another bottle of wine and I was on to the bicardi and cokes....I think I was pissed by now, but I felt good and ready to boogie. And boy did Ulri and I boogie!! I really let my hair down. It was fantastic...we teased, we flirted..all in good fun. Even the guys had a few boogies as you will see in the pics!If people didn't know us any better they would have thought we were lesbians, like I said, all in good fun!! Besides, isn't that a man's fantasy?

Once we got home, and John had gone to bed, things took a change in mood. Suddenly Mark and I were talking - really talking - thanks to the blog...and I do thank it! He expressed his fears about his job and whether he really could do it and he also was scared of losing me. Over the last few months, things have changed, I have changed. My confidence has ten folded and I guess I have become more independant. Having this blog and messenger also means I am spending time talking to other people when in Mark's eyes it should be him I should be talking to. We discussed all the feelings around this and the only thing that we could come up with was that he has to start trying to feel less insecure as this can prevent me doing things because of HIS insecurities. It isn't my fault that he can't handle me having close friends right now. But I am not going to give up them either and he understands that otherwise this could tear us apart and I don't want that. Question now is 'how do we make Mark feel more secure in himself?' And why is he feeling so insecure....more talking required I think.....