Am NOT giving up

Ok, I have a quiet period at work so I thought I would try and re-do my blog that I was working on in the early hours of this morning.

Yesterday I felt really low and a bit mixed up in my head. Am I doing the right thing...will I end up all alone? And then Dale and I started searching for flats and we have managed to arrange an appointment for this evening at 5.45am and I feel really happy and excited again!!

He suggested that we go and register with some letting agencies after work but instead we ended up having a couple in the local pub going through the property guide and generally getting to know each other a bit better. He has some bad habits but nothing I can't handle!

1. Grumpy in the mornings......who isn't!
2. Sleeps through absolutely anything........well we will see about that (water is good here!)
3. Listens to music loudly.....wouldn't have it any other way!!

Not bad list really.....I'm sure in a while I will come back to this and add extensive issues!!! lol

When I got home at 8 I started cooking a curry for Mark and I. This was the first time in a while we had stayed in the house together and I needed to make things were easier for both of us. We talked. He said I was selfish and cold and he didn't know how to be around me. I agreed. We actually had a row!! Whoopee!!! First one ever. Thank god he is at least angry with me! After a few glasses of wine and dinner we talked.....about sex.... a huge break through! Mark finally admitted that it has been crap from day 1 pretty much, but was too embarassed to say anything!! Why didn't I say anything either? The most important thing I am learning through all this, is that being honest and open in your relationship, no matter how hurtful it might be, is the only way to be in a successful, happy one. You live and learn!

See y'all. Take care. x x x x x