Catch up!

I have missed alot of days and am really keen to write about them. However the lead for my camara has mysteriously disappeared and so I cannot up load any images which is rather irritating. I find it hard to write without the back up of images. Ulri has left and I fear she has accidently packed the lead with her!
So i will write about my day today as it is rather significant in where my life is write now and i don't think i need pictures to describe this.

I have finally had the balls to tell one of my family members, the one i know i can trust and be understanding, that Mark and I are having serious problems. My sister has been very supportive but very upset. More than anything she feels for Mark and is worried that he will be left on his own and won't be able to cope. But no one knows how they will cope in situations like these. I certainly don't. More than anything, I was worried how she would react, and possibly judge me...just a little. But although she was intitially upset, she can see where I am coming from and understands how I feel. This is going to be a long journey, and i don't know where it will take any of us. All I know right now, is that my feelings towards Mark are no longer ones of being in a loving relationship, in a marriage. I see him as a brother, and right now do not see myself spending the rest of my life living with a brother. I think I will resent him in time if we do not resolve something, and that worries me.