Independent Theresa

I feel a new chapter in my life is happening and I have realised now that I actually really like my name and would prefer to be called that from now on if I am introduced to new people. I don't expect my close friends to use it...I just want a fresh start with fresh people as it were.


I like living on my own. Actually, I love it. I have been so dependent on other people for so long and I think it was just laziness more than anything. Now I have set up my own computer, changed the shade on my bedroom light, just small things, but small steps bla bla bla!! lol. I do still do most of the cooking for me and Dale but that is my choice and it is always nicer than cooking for one. Besides I love showing off my culinary skills. The other day he said he loved me and would marry me just for my cooking!!! How sweet. Need to fatten the guy up anyway.

It was his birthday last week which can prove a bit of an emotional time for reasons that are just plain private. What we did discuss though is how alone we both feel sometimes. All his friends are up North and he will no longer be a student, so in effect he is losing friends. Lets be honest, how many of us keep in touch with our student flat mates once we have left college? I on the other hand seem to be dwindling in friends. I have certainly gained a valuable couple of friends, but I have also lost a couple of what I thought were good friends....well they don't contact me any more and I know they are very much in touch with Mark still. I must be the bitch from hell as far as they are concerned! Does up set me though as I have been there for them in times of trouble.

So Dale and I are becoming very close, supporting each other. I really enjoy his company. I get him!! I understand where he is coming from especially with his creativity. We have been putting together his portfolio, and I feel very priveleged to be helping him mount his work cause I think it is brilliant! The man just does not know how to take compliments though. He quietly told me that his tutor had said he should be doing a Masters not a degree because his writing was so brilliant....and I have only seen his graphic art!! Multi-talented or what? Some people don't get him for that reason...he is just bloody intelligent and it is their loss if they don't see that.

Although I am working all weekend, I always get that Friday feeling and look forward to it very much. Most evenings of late, if I have not been chatting with Dale I am in my room listening to music on my computer with the headphones he has lent me. I stand in front of the mirror and boogie my ass off!! I think I am re-living my teenage years again...and not having to worry about others for a change. (minus the hair brush microphone!) Selfish Theresa is my new name and selfish I will be!!! It is new to me and positive to me too.

Take care y'all