It's a fresh start for me

Well it's been just over a year since my dear Nan passed away and I feel I have paid my respects long enough. Truth be told, I didn't want to see her face disappear from my blog. But I am starting again. I hope to write it weekly while Meg is at nursery, and it is going to be about my new pregancy and how I am feeling about it etc. This is so I have a record of it and can look back in years to come and see a well documented history of my life with my family.

So what changed my mind? As people around me know, I only ever wanted one child, didn't feel I could go through with it again, plus wasn't sure if Dom could handle a second bout of sleepless nights. But as my body clock has started ticking (36yrs old) and friends are having seconds and thirds I looked at Meg and thought how selfish that would be. She is such an outgoing girl who loves company. Our last holiday in Spain was a little tough as she had no company. I also think how it would be when we are all older. I have had problems in my family and have always needed my sister and co to support me. Who would she have?

So I put it to Dom on Christmas Eve and the long list of reasons not to in the current climate meant a resounding 'No'. I did understand this response as job security right now is a huge worry for the only bread winner in the family. But Dom really did print the picture of the worst scenario EVER. It even put me off! Unfortunately on New Year's Eve, a little excitement left a condom broken. Could I be pregnant? It worried me now, rather than excited me. But luckily, as I told Dom on the phone, I wasn't. But his response was surprising. He had been thinking it over and realised that it would be nice to have a family of 4. But could we wait til March so he knew how his job would be? Absolutely fine with me!

So I go out with the girls on a proper night out on Saturday Jan 17th and come home to a man who can't wait til March! So from then on, we have been trying :)

So Dom and I started trying for a baby in January 09 and when my due period date of Feb 11th didn't occur I just knew I was pregnant. I waited a day and took a cheap 99p test and there was a faint second line. I tried again two days later and the line was stronger. Added to the fact I had no period still, I think I was on to a winner! Now I know I am extremely lucky that I got pregnant so soon. But it is early days yet. So far the symptoms I have been getting are headaches, pressure headaches.....almost from the day of conception, if that is possible. I am into week 5 now and my boobs are already getting bigger and are very tender. I have already booked an appointment to see my doc next Tues but I think my due date is October 19th 09.

My biggest sacrifice, or so I thought, would be red wine. But actually I haven't missed it. I went out with some girlfriends last night and a couple shared a bottle. I took a sip and thought it was foul. This makes me very happy. We now eat earlier in the evenings which is also a good thing. Btw, I am reading a fab book at the moment called 'The Lost Garden' by Kate Morton. It is shear joy. Not for men though!

So that's it really for now. I will report back next week and re-live my week from now. I find myself enjoying writing again. It's just finding the time to do it!

take care
Theresa